in that moment.

last night i had one of those moments. A moment where I was so overcome by the love that i have for my girls, that it literally brought me to my knees. My blessings overwhelm me. It was a simple moment, really. But, in that moment i remembered...

I remembered my struggle in conceiving my precious miracles. I remembered every tear I cried when I longed so desperately for them. I remembered the JOY i felt when i took that first test that came back positive. My body shook with excitement, and my life would no longer be the same. I remembered holding each of my girls for the first time, looking into their eyes, quickly and wholeheartedly falling in love . I remember holding them on my chest all night long when they wouldn't sleep. Their first smiles, hearing their first coos, watching their personalities form; each so different and so precious.

I cannot believe how quickly time is passing, and how fast my children are growing. When i see Anna, i see a little girl. A girl who is growing into her own; developing her own interests, her own personality, her own habits. She no longer needs me like she did before. She is her own person. She is gaining her independence. She recites her own stories, tells her own jokes and will determine her own future (prayerfully, with the Lord's guidance and direction). She is outgrowing her baby looks. She is getting taller, more slender, her hair continues to grow and her mind is quickly retaining more and more.

Although she is her own, she will always be a part of me. She will always be my baby girl.

In that moment, as tears flowed, I realized once again that these girls are a gift. A most precious Blessing that has been bestowed upon me for a time. I must cherish each and every moment, no matter how mundane. Each day is a new day to discover who these girls are becoming. To get to know them, as their own. In that moment, I thanked my God for trusting me to be their "Mommy." There is no greater honor then to watch them grow and know that, in some way, I will always be a part of who they are. I will always be a part of their memories, and they will always be the reason I continue to make memories.

In that moment, I realized that my dreams have come true. My prayers have been answered. My life is no longer my own, I am a Mother to two precious girls... and there is nothing else I would rather be.